A Message To Myself

Sometimes we all wish we had this special someone who knew perfectly what we want to hear to cheer up and stay strong. Well, I think that special someone can only be yourself. Actually, you already know what's your problem and already know what you need to stay strong, but you just hope that someone else would be able to say the words to you instead. However, you are the only one who know yourself best. Therefore, I would like to write this little message for myself, who is currently in a not-so-good condition, mentally.

Hey girl, I know you've been struggling with yourself a lot lately. Sometimes you have to let yourself loose a bit. Don't be too hard on yourself. People make mistakes all the time, no one is perfect. You can't be perfect. You have to accept yourself with your flaws. If it bothers you then you can slowly start to correct yourself.
God;
God will never leave you alone. Actually, He has always been there for you but you just slowly faded away from Him. It's alright, just go back to where He is and stay strong with Him. Show your sincerity. As long as there is God, you will be fine. Perhaps, this was a challenge He had put for you to realize something. Start with the Bible. Read it everyday even though you are busy. Just give 30 minutes of your day to read it. I know it's hard to keep faith, but I know you can do it.
Family;
I know your family is not how you wish it to be. Then again, you still love them. Your know your mother is struggling with a lot of problems too. Never blame her. Do not anger her. Do not put up a fight with her. I understand that she is not your perfect mother, but start to correct yourself first. Show her that you are different from before. Help her with your little brother. You are the eldest, therefore you have the responsibility to educate your brother as if he was your own son. Do not be lazy. He might be a bit naughty now, but be patient with him and teach him the good things. I know you are not ready to do that, but you will be capable of. Pray and God will give you strength.
Friends;
You might have realized it already, but you've been a little bit out of control with your friends lately. Treat them more nicely. You focus too much on yourself, and you don't seem to pay attention to others. This shows that you are selfish and self-centered. Listen when other people talk. Take notice of what they are saying and remember it. Don't go hitting people so easily now. Don't swear. Don't insult. Always help. Always respect. No matter how close you are, always respect, and don't go overboard.
School;
You don't understand why you can't focus at school this semester. It's alright, things like that can happen. The most important thing is you realized. You just have to put yourself together and end the semester better than you started it.
Work;
It becomes a little bit overwhelming but just stay organized and it'll be fine. Feel lucky to have two jobs. Some people can't even get one. If there are any problems at work, just discuss with the managers. You know they can help. Start saving with two jobs!
Shuyun's mind;
Please stop thinking too much. Please stop being so hateful on yourself. Don't be too hard on yourself. Get all the bad things out. Only let room for knowledge and nice thoughts. Stay away as much as possible from the computer. Get more sleep. Sleep earlier and wake-up earlier. Stop the craving. Continue to stand for what you believe in. Do not give in. This is you.
Believe in yourself. 

Some people don't believe in God, and that is completely normal. I chose to believe in God because if I didn't have something to hold on to or to believe in, I think I would have had a mental breakdown. I also chose to believe in God because I felt His presence in my life. Only God can give you that inner peace.